There Is No Enlightened, Endlessly Capable Future-Self Waiting at the Finish Line

The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are. A journey of surrender, identity, and the quiet power of letting the self unweave.

Hello dear reader,

How are you this week? What flows in you?

Drei Kühe am Bach (Three cows by a river) (1914) by Heinrich Von Zügel (German, 1850 - 1941)

This week, I find myself in the midst of an inner unraveling, where the usual self dissolved and the usual words did not come. And so I mostly sit in the silence instead of forcing the right vocabulary in which to wrap my experience.

Holding gently still, I offer you the shape of that silence, from my journal pages.

Having waded through a couple of quite tumultuous weeks, rippling outwardly from the inner current's shifts, I went to sit by the river, to be reminded how to flow. I placed one hand on the rocks and another in the water, letting myself calibrate back into life.

“Water is present to its circumstances and surroundings and therefore ready to move in any direction that allows it passage,” wrote Shannon Lee in Be Water My Friend. That openness and pliability means it is in a constant state of natural readiness, “because it is simp…